Drug Rehabilitation that works

im 15 years old. i will be 16 in less than a month.
ive been in the court system since i was 14.
i was locked up for 8 months in juvenile detention and 2 programs.
ive been to detention a lot, i have lots of charges.. 15 misdominors.
im facing my second felony in court on march 18th.
im fat and ugly… my family cant affod counceling or medication for depression and A.D.D.
I was kicked out of my high school and its the only high school within 60 miles of where i live.
i started doing drugs at 13 and have tried just about anything, i will do anything i can get, my current addiction is cough medicine, pain pills, sex, meth, weed, and cigarettes. the only love i ever had cheated on me and played mind games and abused me. my dad is abusiive and addicted to meth, verbally and so is my mom. the only person i could trust is my sister and she is addicted to pain pills BAD and she is slowly dying. i have a brother with aids and addicted to heroin. i have had sex with 4-5 guys with no relationships trying to get pregnant, no protection. at least 10 guys more than 10 times each I cut myself, and you can say its for attention all you want, but i will only do it when i get yelled at, it calms me down, and punching walls… i have always had trouble making friends, partly because i cant control my actions or what comes out of my mouth. i’m a compulsive liar to my parents.. they offen tell me what a waste of a person i am, how i eat too much, how i wont ever get anywhere… i grew up in a home where my dad was never home and i never heard “i love you” (im in tears just from typing that) i drink whenever i can and i always end up drinking too much, that i pass out of have sex with someone and not remember it. i’m a theif. i steal money from anyone. i steal cough medicine from the stores. ive overdosed a lot on it. i have a very ugly face and everything about me is pretty much unloveable. the only people that hang out with me are people who do bad things “sometimes” and im the kind of person that is always doing bad things. lots of people in this small town hate me, and ever since i was in kindergarten some kids my age were told to stay away from me… i will do anything for exceptance and im addicted to the feeling of being able to say “ive done that before” idk what to do and your probably not going to answer this now because i sound like a horrible person.. oh well go ahead tell me how im wasting this world’s oxygen.

or you can give me some support or advice?

I have such low self esteem that ive been experementing with anorexia since i was very little, and latley ive been throwing up every single meal, purposly, for almost 2 weeks

this upcoming court date is one that going to probably put me in community placement, away from my home, for long term… i have no idea what to do………….. i feel like dying.
the last grade i ACTUALLY PASSED was 6th grade.

when i was 14, right before i got locked up i was raped and while i was locked up i got a call and they told me “the guy that raped me left town and possibly went back to mexico” he was a mexican….. it was eating me alive while i was locked up and its getting worse over time. sometimes i cant sleep, i have dreams, and i cry whenever i think about it…

whats even worse is that my probation officer told me that on my court date on March 18th she is going to reccomend that i be put in community placement.. like a foster home…… im so scared i dont know what to do! HELP? please

Colder, drizzlier, less sunshine.
Thanks Jag-U-R, that tells me a lot.

If somone had never heard of either Cannabis or Sugar/fats/oils before in their life, and I showed them a highly accurate and detailed report of both substances how many people do you think would say bad food is way worse for you than cannabis??

I think the numbers would be overwhelmingly in favor of cannabis being better for you… Please keep in mind though the diffrence between abuse and use.

Let me clear up some Stuff as well. Sugar less addictive than weed? thats hard to belive, less than 1% of cannabis users develope a physical or mental addiction to Marijuana. While i don’t have statistics for sugar i can allmost garentee more kids/adults these days are addictied to sugar far more than they are to weed.

I am a person who has done MDMA(Ecstasy) meth, weed, coke, lsd, shrooms, dmt, alcohol, tabbaco, and i can honestly say giving up bad foods was the 1 thing i cannot do. And not im not obese or eat a TON its just i need them, its serously the only thing ive been addicted too.
Cannabis has worse effects over time? That’s debatable… diabetes, obesity, rotting teeth, gastrointestinal cancer, high blood pressure, high cholesterol levels, low levels of physical activity all sound serous to me…

While cannabis has about 2-4X more cancer causing components than Cigarettes, studies show long term abuse of cannabis is unlikely to cause cancer of the lungs or upper airways. They suspect that tobacco only causes cancer because of the radioactive soil and nicotine. Also I might add an average marijuana smoker only needs 2-5 “hits” to get high while a cigarette smoker may smoke a Pack(!) a day and 1 cigarette alone will be more smoke than a marijuana smokes in 1 day.

I’m not saying cannabis is healthy I’m just saying sugar can and most likely is worse than cannabis if abused even If the marijuana smoker is an extremely heavy user.

and yes about 50% of america abuses it allready(bad foods)

Drug addiction typically only causes damage to one person’s life – the drug addict. But religion causes damage to not just the religion addict but to almost everyone they contact throughout their life, especially their children, right? So in most cases, it would be better for humanity if religious people lived their lives in a drug induced haze rather than to have them screwing up their children’s minds, spreading their ridiculous beliefs to other people and voting for corrupt politicians who use religion to gain power, right?

Here’s number 4. Street Methadone. Next part: www.youtube.com

I know both are terrible, this is kind of to prove a point to a friend of mine
Any like facts or statistics would be great.