Drug Rehabilitation that works

So its decided I am going to California in Aug. The household is too intense. My mom bangs the walls, yells hits, screams for no reason. My brother has my 30inch LCD and now I want it back but my father says that is my brothers. They argued with me told me I was worthless and ugly. So the other colleges I applied to are out of the question. I just called tampa univeristy to withdraw my application. I need help to deal with this until I leave in Aug. To be honest I dont really think I am going to make it. Every day I overdose on drugs because of this. This whole envrionment changed me. I am very calm when my mom has her bi-polar episode then my brother makes it worse insulting me and adding more fuel to my moms rage and takes it out on me. I have so much medication that everyday I overdose. They hospitlized me two times couple of months ago, for no reason. I was taking my medicine responsbilty and they assumed I was abusing it and had an eating disorder. None of this was true. Now because of all the lies they told me, doctors and family members I devloped an eating disorder, I abuse all of my medications every day, and I dont think I am going to live much longer. When I walk my heart hurts really bad. My pulse fluctuates dramatically from 55-170 everyday. Rehab will only but me back in the same situation! I just need to get out of here ASAP before I sersiouly die. I amn not overreacting or anything, but the abuse in the household is just unbareable. I do everything from reaming calm, asking questions as to why they are mad, remove my self from that situation but it doesnt help.Thank god its almost june, but seriosuly I am already contemplating suicide. I dont want to hear answers of seeking help, like going to a hospital or so forth because look what it did. I was a normal kid using adderall responsbily and after being tackeled by my father for no reason to go to the hospital tramatized me. I threathened them with eveyrhting and told them I get w.e. medication I want and they had to aggree cause I was about to leave ny again. This is not who I am. I dont understand why they do this, but I need serious coping skills. I am telling you, I dont want to hear go to hospital or rehab as I really dont have hte problem. I am just not dealing with the problems correctly. I am afraid if I ever go back to the hospital, I will die. I will proab gain weight. Become hestrical, overdose on meth, coke, or something and that it. I just need some serious guidance to deal with very verbally abusive manipulative people. Because with the rate how things are going I wont make it to Aug. four days ago I overdosed on Wellbutrin and had a seziure because my mom said all of this horrible stuff and my brother instigated it. It was so cruel and evil. Theres no other way I can deal with this?

I mean they said I went to the hospital for my own good? I was correctly using my medication and out of the bloom they drove my slowly crazy. I am telling you I need tips instead of short answers like go see somone. I dont have that avaliable right now! If you dont really listen to what I am trying to say and say stuff like rehab or seek help then I guess, this will be an anna nicole case in scarsdale. Its not that I am addicted to drugs its just the abuse in the fmaily is too much and there is no way I can deal with it. I have no family members that are supportive. I dont know, but please give advise.I am one step away from being a coke and meth addict. And mixing these with prescriptions well…end in death. Honestly if everyone thinks its hearsay horse say well, or doing this to cause attention well beleive that. All I really want is strategies to deal with this until college starts in aug. Because everyday I take more and more. Soon, I just might now wake up.
I am felling better, IO keyed my bros car so many times and soon ill key my moms car. MY dad, honestly if I saw him here I would put chlorine in his water and watch him die, so I am hoping he doesnt ever visist me.

having a hard time handling life and motherhood and I feel I’m dragging my loved ones down with me. In the last 8+ years I have been employed quite a few times and haven’t held a single one. I started drinking when I was young and alcoholism and my choices have caused a great deal of problems and worry. I have 2 DUI’s and have 6 months left of probation but worry about paying anything. I have become a loser. My credit is so bad and I don’t have a single penny to even get Anything put in my name. I’m trying to keep pressing on. I have gone to numerous detoxes and most recently successfully completed 8 1/2 months in residential treatment facility. My daughter was 3 months when I entered. I am still sober but it’s not easy. I almost fatally shot myself in July of 2006 and tear my family up with my problems. I want to be alive and be happy and healthy but I’m having a hard time building a ladder to crawl out of this hole. No job, no money, no license. I want to go to school. I want to contribute. I need to fight harder. I’m stuck. Jails, institutions and near death. I know you can’t answer this for me but can I pull out of this and be the person I know in my heart I’m meant to be?

I have been married for 5 years(our children are grown) and my husband is diagnosed with BP. He also is an alcoholic and now has 3 months sobriety. He is being treated by a psychiatrist and is on a very high dose of lithium. He began lithium in April/2008 and this “mood enhancer” has not yet improved his mood swings. He overreacts to issues that just don’t matter! If he is not irritable, he looks very sad and is very quiet/despondent. He has lost that sparkle he used to have in his eyes. When he gets angry, I have tried everything from making a light joke of his reaction, ignoring it, listening respectfully and hearing his issue, walking away and quietly saying that I don’t wish to participate in his bad mood…..oooh, I am very frustrated as nothing seems to work. Also,as well as having BP, combatting alcoholism and remaining sober is also a huge challenge for him. I find that living like this is dragging me down. I feel happy when he is not around and I have a healthy circle of friends that I talk to and visit. When he comes home, I am noticing more that I put up a wall of defense around me. Often, when I talk to him, he will get angry over a word I used –or just anything! IT is so frustrating so I notice I talk less because I wish to avoid confrontation. I feel like a yo-yo.The other side of it is that the man I married is highly educated, talented and interesting. When he is out of the ‘lows”, he is the best husband any wife could wish for! He is kind, generous, thoughtful, successful and concerned about my well-being. Unfortunately, I haven’t enjoyed any good times with him for almost 4 months but I am hoping that when the lithium “kicks” in and/or when he has more sobriety then these negative times will lessen. We are financially secure with so many blessings and here I am thinking about leaving. I realize that grass isn’t always greener on the other side, but lately I feel pretty depressed living like this. I would appreciate any advice or words of encouragement. thanks.

I was wondering if it is common for bipolar individual’s to use alcohol or drugs to “buffer” mood swings?