Drug Rehabilitation that works

As I’ve aged I’ve fallen into the easy buzz. I was mystical and lived in yoga ashrams and had a great many wonderful experiences. They warned me if I left at the point I was at that the negative would come at me even harder. Kind of like stretching a rubber band. I pulled it far because I had extraordinary ability and saw and walked away. They were amazed and saddened. True to their word I’ve fallen into alcoholism which those who haven’t been there can’t understand. My spiritual side has never gone away yet alcohol like a cancer won’t let me go. Any answers??